i wanted to make a little hello about me post because i have accumulated a lot of followers recently but i don’t even know what to say other than “i will probably piss you off at some point but i promise i’m a nice person”
I feel like doing this in real life. “Hey there, I have selected you to become my new friend. Here’s everything about my life up to this point. Please don’t run away?”
Yeah I tend to uh… over share. That’s why I don’t have many friends. Hahaha
most people these days seem to be big on being ‘drama-free’; sadly i have tonnes of ‘baggage’ and i’m tired of apologising for it. haven’t found any decent middle ground and also tired of people running away when i’m going through a bad time so it seems more economical to NOT make friends easily. hah.
yeah :\ “drama free” is SO LOADED. i’ve had ‘dramatic’ hurled at me before —when i had just ended a 6 yr relationship & lost a 2 year full time job, for example. like how is that not supposed to be dramatic?? erg. i think people in general run away from friends who are suffering. it’s super shitty. especially for those of us who are almost constantly going through rough times due to mental illness or poverty or shit luck or whatever. like all the people who wanted to be around me when i was manic a year ago & partying constantly suddenly disappeared when i crashed and needed them most. at this point i kind of expect people to suck. buuuut on the other hand, all the best people i’ve known i met online, when i wasn’t hiding who i am. so there’s that :)
That happened here too, except I more or less cut off contact with people. I got to the point where I felt like I didn’t have anyone genuinely interested in my issues, as I was theirs, and hated when things weren’t reciprocated, so I dropped them like a ton of bricks. It’s led to a slightly more isolated life, seeing as my best friends are now scattered across the country, but it’s totally worth it. Everyone deserves people who they care about and who care about them. It just takes time and eventually setting realistic boundaries is what helps. Now if I could only figure that out when it comes to romantic partners we’d be set…
